Allow me to properly introduce my personal project - The Lotus Pond.  While this “spontaneously” started off as an online journal documenting my spiritual growth, day by day, it has morphed into its own being, clearing path for my authentic voice, thoughts, and identities to come through. In doing so, I feel liberated from my past, untethered by tomorrow’s unknown. With this freedom, I now feel creatively inspired to heal others through my academic, spiritual, and life learnings.

My intention at large is to be a friendly guide for other likeminded women and mothers, near and far, new and veteran. The she who has been solitarily searching for her true identity and like me, has felt under-supported, alone and disconnected by the superficial conversations and the lost sisterhood surrounding 21st-century womanhood and motherhood.

I'm here to rewrite a new and improved narrative for today’s woman and mother, and I hope you will join me.  

My motherhood journey led me to my Spiritual Awakening, where I realized the indescribably loving force felt only with one’s opened heart; an energetic essence which had always been there, guiding, supporting, teaching, blessing me each step of the way. While this transformation began when I became pregnant at 26, it wasn't until years later that I finally started hearing, realizing, and listening to this existent deep inner wisdom. All along, motherhood has been my anchor, my love for my children has grounded me through all the shit storms and lessons learned. While I'd thought this spiritual journey was focused on finding my purpose, it turned out to be a life curriculum of surrendering and loving “ME” for all that I already am.

Do you resonate?

Today, I feel called to officially open up and share knowledge on my "Spiritual Matrescence," hopefully bringing a different type of reassurance and comfort to those who feel stuck or unheard in their role as a woman and/or mother.  As I continue to study, research, write and live this universal developmental rite of feminine passage, I hope my own process can initiate more self-love and self-discovery in you!  This safe haven will be a creative compilation of authentic empirical experiences, well-researched data, and a strong inner wisdom covering everything from motherhood to women empowerment to spiritual healing.

In reading and listening to my words, I wish nothing but for you, my beautiful friend, to discover your own unique and truest self, be it through motherhood or whatever creative channel that best fits you. 

Welcome to The Lotus Pond, let us discover our true selves through the Spiritual journey of Matrescence!


MATRESCENCE (n.) /mæˈtres.ənts/)

The process of becoming a mother, coined by Dana Raphael, Ph.D. (1973), is a developmental passage where a woman transitions through pre-conception, pregnancy and birth, surrogacy or adoption, to the postnatal period and beyond. The exact length of matrescence is individual, recurs with each child, and may arguably last a lifetime! The scope of the changes encompass multiple domains --bio-psycho-social-political-spiritual-- and can be likened to the developmental push of adolescence."

- Aurélie Athan, Ph.D.


"No Mud, No Lotus"

Thich Nhat Hanh

The LOTUS has been a strong archetypal symbol throughout my growth as a woman and mother. I believe we are all lotuses, purposefully floating together in this pond called life. The muddy water, although dark and scary, is a necessary containment to build and deepen our inner strength. By loving and being our most authentic self, we hold the power to rise through the mud and bloom towards the sunlight - becoming who we are always meant to be.

Image by Annie Spratt

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